Here's a newer poem. it is actually a small piece of a book I'm working on. Book doesn't have a solid title yet, neither does the poem, but the chapter the poem starts is called The Worst Situations, The Best Lessons? enjoy.

I don’t need this. But I want it so bad.
I can’t have it… Can I?
Not for long, at least.
You can’t stand to see me not sad; not on the brink
Of the self destruction that we both know is not possible.
I was doing everything right. I did everything that you said you wanted.
All for nothing.
I was happy, she was happy, and so was he. So what?
You don’t learn from the happy times.
Well my friend I learned fast and I learned well,
So I hope that you’re ready, because I’m coming fast.
My life was made a hell, and when mine is over you’ll see
That I’ll make yours that way as well.

The things we regret most in life are the things we can still change but don't. It seems to me that more often than not when we put into consideration the feelings of our friends and family we leave out our own. We cause ourselves the most pain in life when we hold back from what we want and out of pure selflessness we allow others to be happy while we remain torn apart on the inside. I've always been a firm believer in living life with no regrets, but for the previously stated reasons i have failed in that philosophy. Over and over i create regret after regret and i don't seem to be capable of breaking the cycle. The worst part is i can change things. I could have and should have done this or that, yet out of concern for the happiness of my loved ones I never act on these thoughts.

I still Love her.

I miss him.

I wish i had been a better friend to them.

I wish i had been there when she needed me.

I should have told her.

I should have said something.

I should have done something.

I should never have let go.

Regret after Regret after Regret. I would say I'm a happy person, despite all the recent loss and pain I've been through. And i hope that the people i let go are really, truly happy with the lives I let happen and not torn apart on the inside as I am when i think about the way things could have... and maybe should have been. I love you all. And to everybody who has been there for me over the years... you deserve the best. Better.

-Michael H. Jimenez

My First Video Blog

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